Re: [Amc-list] "this doesn't look like TheEmerald City , Toto..." -

["Jerijan" <jerijan@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

*SIGH*
You have it 'On the Money'!
I Listen to all, regardless of source.  Good advise isn't good until it's 
'tried'.

About 'reserve until OK'.  Yup.  That's the prescription; prepare for the 
'fight', do it, but keep in mind, there's a price to pay at the end.
I'm not smart enough yet to do that (denial and all that.  soon reality 
should 'show the way', but until then, maybe..just maybe...this will 'go 
away' (RIGHT!!!)
When I feel 'OK', I just jump into it (whatever 'it' is) tooth and nail.  Go 
nuts.  And, of course, CRASH...jst about invariably.
I just had one of the longest respites from this mess (*they did a 'new 
thing' on me they'd not done before and it produced great results fora few 
weeks until...something happened.  (what?  I don't know.  If I did, I'd undo 
it).  but the Pain is back...worse in some ways to the previous round (which 
had been the worst until this point...
Can you imagine:
going to a market and having to sit down because you cannot stand the pain 
of standing??
having to ride the little 'scooters' (or cart or whatever that is) because 
you cannot handle walking??
being a sound-effect producer just about every time you move??  'ouch, ow, 
oooooooo, yikes, ugh, etc, etc'...  How in hell are you going to continue in 
denial if you can't keep quiet?  Eventually you'll start to believe, 'maybe 
there IS something wrong here'?  (DUH!)
walking must be planned (getting 'there' is half the trip.  You have to walk 
home too.
15 minutes from the rear of the Super-PriceChopper to the checkout counter 
because the goddammed pain just won't let you straighten up!

Yup.  It Sucks.
The only concession to reality I am prepared to make at the moment is the 
reduce the fleet (and make my parameters of responsibility somewhat less and 
to make me less likely to 'get stupid' and work my ass off doing stuff I 
ain't got a dime's worth of business doing.  It's tough to admit, but I'm an 
idiot; I simply never remember the payback when I start because I always 
start with 'I am going to take it easy'.  RIGHT!  EASY?  One of my problems 
is a lifelong joy of being blessed with ADHD...hyperactivity.  JeezumCrowe, 
Hyperactive head with a dead body??  like driving with the handbrake 
on...DUH!  (ADHD is great stuff: Man, can you get a pile of crap done when 
you are in 'hyperfocus' mode.  On the other hand, Man, can you pay the piper 
when you've sinned!  SHEEEESH!)

Pain is not for the weak.  But regardless of how strong you are now...pain 
will ALWAYS wear you down.  Period.  So if you ain't weak yet, nod knowingly 
to God, say 'Thank You God' for my health blessing, and pray you NEVER take 
a whack like I've been blessed with.

So what do I say to God when I 'talk' to 'Creator'?  It's simple.
'Thank You God for another Day, and for my friends.  What would you like me 
to do today??"
God takes care of fools and drunks.  Since I quit the Alcohol long long ago, 
I only have God's 'Fool Protection', but it keeps me in check.
Ain't neer been called upon to do more than I can handle (but this pain crap 
IS close..sometimes, truth be told, it IS overwhelming, depressing, and can 
darken the brightest of days.

'And this, too, shall end.'
--And It Shall--

Jerijan

Oh!  I almost forgot.  AMC Content:  BEEP BEEP!! BEEP BEEP!!  His Horn went 
'Beep Beep Beep'!
*hehehehe*


----- Original Message ----- 
From: <Wrambler242@xxxxxxxxxxx>
To: "AMC/Rambler owners, drivers and fans." <amc-list@xxxxxxxxxxxx>
Sent: Sunday, September 09, 2007 11:03 PM
Subject: Re: [Amc-list] "this doesn't look like TheEmerald City , Toto..." -


> The disscussion on pain meds is Brian telling me how to heal myself.
> It would be nice if he was a little less, whatever, about it....
> All I know is I am in pain, I am following what I choose to follow right 
> now.
> Maybe Brian is even right?
> I'm sure he believes he is.
> Perhaps when I've exhausted other avenues I will follow is advice and give 
> it a try.
>
> I hope you find an answer to your suffering.
> No one should have to go through this and people that haven't should not 
> point fingers.
> People that have should understand.....
>
> I found out yesterday that by reserving myself till I feel OK, not good, 
> just OK, I can get a days work in!
> I just have to be ready to pay the price later...
>
> --
> Mark Price
> Morgantown, WV
> 1969 AMC Rambler, 4.0L, EFI, T-5
> " I was different before people dared to be different"
>
> -------------- Original message ----------------------
> From: "Jerijan" <jerijan@xxxxxxxxxxx>
>> Greetings..
>>
>> I don't know exactly what the discussion on pain meds is all about...but
>> I've been living on them for years now...
>>
>> I go to pain clinic in Burlington, VT and basically live on Percocet and
>> Methodone...and it truly rots...because they (the drugs) do not diminish 
>> the
>> pain but a bit leaving me to waddle thru life with a hugely large back
>> problem which in it's time will preclude me from doing such mundane 
>> things
>> like walking...just plain walking!!  SHHHHHHEEEEESH!!
>>
>> So them folks who don't understand what pain is...every day...when the
>> 'pain' does what it does...when it never relents, when it just does not
>> allow one a decent respite from the harshest of punishments, your own 
>> body's
>> failing...
>> failing to function...
>> To walk...
>> to bend
>> dance...
>> etc, etc, etc...
>>
>> I don't find any part of any discussion about chronic pain funny unless 
>> it
>> comes from someone who actually understands it and has dealt with it for 
>> any
>> length of time...(don't actually have to suffer with it to understand it,
>> just know it's real enough and is a very very serious debility which is
>> pervasive in one's life...it basically RULES one's life...
>>
>> Truth is quite simply that I'd likely not understand the gravity of this
>> crap unless I'd gone thru it myself (which, of course, I am 
>> doing)...perhaps
>> ignorance was better...
>>
>> *Sigh*
>>
>> *SIGH*
>>
>>
>>
>> What to do about it??
>>
>> I've not found the solution to chronic pain...to having one's life put on
>> hold by serious and unrelenting pain...
>> I can increment the pain pills (I don't even get 'high' from the dammed
>> things!!  That HAS to be the worst of it all...Narcotics and NO HIGH!! 
>> *OK,
>> so I think THAT'S funny*)...
>>
>> Am I reading that you've been initiated to chronic pain the thus a pain
>> clinic??
>>
>> My Pains eminate from FibroMyalgia (and ME, the new name for CFIDS) and 
>> an
>> older existing issue with spinal arthritis and deformities and a chronic
>> type of 'disorder' in which the degradation will continue unabated 
>> forever
>> (well, how much past 'downrightfugginmothafugginnutsocoocoocrapetcetc' 
>> can
>> it go???)
>>
>> What are your pain issues and how do you 'do' Ramblers with chronic and
>> unabating pain??
>> I have to actually consider dumping the fleet (which, in fact I 
>> am...which
>> of my cars would you like to purchase??)...
>>
>> Oh...got a 195.6 CID 63 engine?
>>
>> Jerijan
>>
>> (*all the pain stuff is for real.  it's the worst thing I've ever
>> experienced in my life, been ongoing for near 15 years (worsening) and 
>> I'm
>> at wits end with it to the point that I am actually commencing the fleet
>> reductions mentioned...)
>>
>> Pass the word...these go..
>> '54 Nash Ambassador 2dr Ht Country Club
>> '56 Nash Ambassador 4 dr sedan
>> '62 Rambler Ambassador 4 dr (327 Hi-Per 4V)
>> '63 Rambler Ambassador 4 dr (327 Lo-Comp 2V)
>> '63 American(s), Conv and 4 dr wagon
>> '65 American(s)...2dr Ht, 2 dr Conv.
>> '65 Ambassador Conv.
>> '67 American 220 2dr sdn
>> '70 Gremlin 2 dr sdn (not Commuter)
>> '85 Eagle Wagon
>> '88 Jeep GrandWagoneer
>> '55 Packard Clipper 4 dr
>>
>> there are more...most likely...But interested in anything??
>>
>> Jerijan
>>
>>
>> '
>>
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